My place. To be…Me

Music of the Moment: Secondhand Serenade – You & I (Acoustic Version)

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For those of you who do not know, my last post was my 100th post on this blog, and while I planned to “celebrate” the 100th post occasion, I didn’t. Oh well, let’s talk about how fast one year can go.

I cannot believe that the end of my Freshman year of college is here. My last paper is due tomorrow. That’s crazy to me, as it just seems like it was yesterday that I was packing all my stuff, reassuring my mom that I wouldn’t make bad decisions (oops), took a trip to Nationals, received a bid, and learned how difficult it was really going to be in college.

I haven’t shaven in three days….

This year…It’s flown by so fast, and I still cannot comprehend just how quickly it has flown by. The things I’ve learned, the paces I’ve seen, and most importantly the people who I’ve met. These are things you cannot ever conjure up, and maybe it’s something that college is meant to provide. Not only are we here to receive an education, but learn along the way from others who become incredibly close to us. Just like life seems to do ever so frequently, college too has a way of teaching us without us even knowing it most of the time.

I’ve met some amazing people here. I’ve also met some less than amazing people here at Allegheny. Some that I’m jealous of, some that I long for, and some that I cannot see to figure out. In this short school year, I have made some friends that I don’t think I’l ever lose contact with, and also met some that I think I have been destined to meet for a very long time, and perhaps even needed to meet in order to really figure things out.

Leaving for college has also done one thing that most of us don’t really want to admit, but what the hell, why not? You realize how much you need not only your friends, but your family as well, and how much your parents were right. It’s all part of the process of growing up though. It takes others longer than some, but we all get there eventually (at least I want to believe we’ll all get there).

Coming to Allegheny, I was a hopeless romantic, and I still am. That is something that wont ever change, no point in denying it. I know the perfect girl is out there, and even though I tend to believe, on some days, that I should just give up, lower my standards, or perhaps I won’t really ever find anyone at all, the thought of being alone has…well, it’s become easier I guess. It’s not something that I enjoy the thought of, but it’s certainly an easier thought than it was when I got here. I know that I wouldn’t have ever believed that had I not met some people at this college. I’ve got three more years of this, and I want to make the most of it, and whether that means I do it alone or not, I’m sure it will be great. Still hate being alone though…

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The weirdest thing happened to me yesterday, an I still cannot believe that it took me so long to see this. I was walking through campus on a really nice evening, and the campus life was full of life and energy. I was walking to get my dinner for the evening, and was then off to study for my finals (which would keep me up until about 3:30 AM). I arrived at an intersection, and I realized at that exact moment that I am free. I could go anywhere I wanted, in any direction, and there would be no one to stop me. It’s so weird, and so difficult to explain, but it literally took me until one of my last days here this semester to have fully see this realization and totally comprehend it.

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Back to this year though, it’s amazing how much one can learn in one short school year. I cannot even begin to list everything, and although I had planned to make some sort of list…Well to be honest I don’t even know where to start. All I know is that I’ glad I came here for one reason or another. It’s done me a lot of good, and next year is going to be even better. I just know it.

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Summer is here as of tomorrow at 9 AM for me. I want to make this one special, one that I won’t forget, and although I don’t know quite how I will do that just yet, I have a feeling that it will be great. What a better way to start it off than attending you best friends wedding the first weekend that you’re home? =]

To my friends and classmates, here’s to one year down, and three to go. Let’s make it count.

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Bring it on summer. Whatcha’ got?

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